Has God ever asked you to let go of something you loved, even if it was a really good thing? Why would God do that?
In September I stepped down from the Good News Group and have now had a term of not being there each week. (Although it was wonderful to be involved in the Christmas service with everyone.) I’m still a bit heartbroken to be honest but it has been good for me to think about why God would do this to me and what I might need to learn from it.
One thing I realised is that God wants me to come to him and give my time to him. I’m still working this out as I am naturally a really busy person and can soon fill up a few spare minutes or hours. Social media is a big draw to me – and I’m still having to discipline myself to stop looking at it so much – (not doing brilliantly on that yet). Wouldn’t it be awful if I just filled up my time with worthless activities instead of God… so I am aiming to do more walking to my local country park and while I am walking, listen to the lovely voice of David Suchet reading a book of the Bible to me. I am already falling back in love with God’s word by doing this. I’m not studying it, or doing a study book…just listening.
By letting go of the Good News Group I have given others the chance to step up. I have been praying each day for the team that is left and know that it is a difficult time of transition. But I know too that this is God’s work and he will equip and enable them. I remember when the previous leaders left, very suddenly, and three of us offered to take on leadership ‘temporarily’!!! We had no clue how to do it or how we were going to manage, but at every step, in prayer, God has enabled us. If you are running a similar group or thinking of doing so – just pray, pray, pray and know that God will enable you. The more we trust him, the more he is able to give us – and then we can give the glory back to him. We know we don’t deserve any of it.
I think I was taking some of God’s glory and putting my hope in what I was doing, not who God is. I need to be humble and repent of this.
And finally I am now seeing that God has work for me to do elsewhere. My hubby and I are still visiting other churches and I am getting a better feel of what disability awareness and support might be needed by churches. I am not feeling the need to settle anywhere else so far, but then if God has that in his plan, we are certainly open to it. It is a time of waiting and learning – being such an active person, this does not come naturally to me, but then with God all things are possible!
My prayer for all of you (maybe 3 people…ha ha!) who read my blog is that you too know when God is calling you out to wait, listen and learn. It may be a time he is getting you ready for the next stage of your ministry or a time of discipline and healing. And don’t forget that our friends with learning difficulties may need times like this too. It may be that God calls you to come alongside someone one-to-one and support them through their time of waiting.
God Bless and do keep in touch. There will be some news next year, as I think God is leading me to new things that I have had meetings about recently…